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i am just a copy of a copy of a copy

I'm pretty sure I've been having a bit of a midlife crisis; typical 40-year-old behavior, I guess. I keep feeling plagued by the thought that somehow every time I've made a decision it must have been the wrong one, and it was making it increasingly hard to make any decisions. Something about turning 40, it hit me in a way that it's never really have before that I can't go back and change anything - this is all I've got and it's probably about half over. There were at least a few days there, when I was unemployed, where I did nothing. I mean, not even really get out of bed - just lay there all day weirdly immobilized by abstract fear of all the trouble leaving the house could get me in. I know none of this is rational. But trying to reconcile what you feel with what you know can be an exercise in futility.

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jwright_71673
Sep. 13th, 2013 11:32 pm (UTC)
I did! I made a Facebook announcement late Monday, I think. I started on Wednesday.

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